Omg, the world is filling with more and more gays. lol Guys nowadays don't understand the true meaning of 'Manhood' or becoming a real 'Man' anymore. Soon the world will be abducted by this type of alien called 'Gays', and all women will be of no use anymore in the face of the Earth.
Seriously, i fucking hate gays. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...... Just like how my brother scold in front of the TV screen playing 'Winning Eleven' game. lol. I'm so pissed off by many gay encounters today, quite alot of them in fact, disgusting looks and 'shapes'. lol No.1 gays organisation is 'band'. I seriously think that gays usually will stay in band in poly. Wadever. That's wat inside my mind, and it's still stuck until infinity.... Unless someone gave me the perfect proof that band members are not gay.... lol. I realli mean it. Gays just fucking disgusts me to the max. It's totally the purest and super anti-climax, and wat i'm looking is pure climax, not anti. LOL!
Today, i got so many contacts with alot of girls. First was my class, that's usual. Den i met Peijun at Mac, but didn't say hi. And that was like so not usual. lol. Den there's 07 ppl asking for my help in stupid DE. Until to the point where i was left alone guy there. lol. DE until i got so shagged teaching and super tired. Den i started talking abt my 'climax' thingy den it's super crazy. lol
Girls, 'climax' doesn't mean sex, isn't it? Sex is just physically the highest point in sexual intercourse, or so-called orgasm, while 'climax' is... hmm, depends on individuals. If you think sex is your 'climax' den think so. For me, i'm still searching for it, but it's definitely not the 'full climax' that i'm seeking for. Haha! ~Full seh! lol. Btw, i oso shld watch 'good luck chuck' or wadever the title is. lol
God, i'm so shagged and tired. I just dunno why i took the effort to help other ppl. But i felt glad by helping. I just wan everyone in this world to be as intelligent as each other. Haha lame.
I felt like, all these time i was just watching the whole world and time passed me by, i dun seem to feel much for everyone and the events that are happening around is just like a snap! and it's the new present time already. lol. It's like, i never get to enjoy the every second of moment of every time that i spent with people, with events. Even sleeping is just a snap! and it's daytime and gotta go to school. lol
Now, i just checked my horoscope shit for today.
Daily Horoscope for Virgo Today's Date: January 30, 2008
You have at least two sides, maybe more. You're capable and resolute in most situations. Take full advantage of every opportunity you meet.
Intensity: 59% Keywords: urge to merge, sexy Mood: watchful
I noe it's mostly fake, but i just can't help seeing how well i could get with the girl that i like, female celebrities, and any girl whose name i know of. It's stupid, but just can't help it, especially rite.... when you type rite..... the name of the girl who you really wanna jio one.... Den hor.... The percentage is high!!! Your morale SURE*BOOST* like hell, an adrenaline running in your blood which makes you tense and dunno what to do......
But! There'll be a time when you'll be over-confident after knowing that 'love calculator' thingy. So you will like action lah, or watsoever, with the person that you like. That's the bad point, and i will hate it too. It'll be better for me to think that the girl doesn't like me, so that i'll not be tense most of the times. lol
Today's dman tired, helped with Nora's PMP, and was like.... Omg, i need a stretcher! lol. But i realised i was hungry, that's why i felt weak. Den K and Sarah were lke keep on dragging me to go dinner with them, which i think they'll like go walk walk for so long, wasting time for sure. But i finally ended up joining them, and just as i had thought so. lol
PS until Orchard...... -_-" Kenneth you ~gooood ah!
I need to budget budget budget budget budget budget budget............
Ok, reached home and solved Hani's PMP.... Another PMP.... Got the shiok kinda feeling ah..., seeing codes, solving errors, cracking the brain and grow more white hair. LOL! Somehow i felt it was more challenging than Sudoku. lol
Makes my mind running, running, running, running, running...........
Lalalas~ I'm so shagged i felt like soeone who has just finished his 'climax'. lol But dun worry, it's not 'my climax' yet, i still waiting for it. HAHA!
I didn't realised Blood+ is so saddenning show lah! wth I thought it was supposed to be more of action-based and violence, with blood and gory and many special action effects on it that'll amaze viewers watching this show.
But it's more of the emotional stuffs going on within the characters in the story, how they managed to live and move on despite of the fact that the main female character (in the picture) 'Saya', who is just an ordinary girl who began a new twist in her life in this story. Sounds cool, but it's truly sad. And i choose the wrong time to watch this show, but then nvm. lol
So sianded... MY brain is filled with many many schizophrenic conversations, talking to me non-stop till i got a big headache inside my head.
Well, changed my blogskin, the previous one was so saltish, so... changed =)
This week was filled with many surprises and burdens and hard work. Thanks to many friends who were there to support each other to do our projects.
Kenneth How's the CS? 3 vs 16 or 4 vs 16 more fun? Lol Luckily you told me abt the hacker thingy, or else i'll just die right now. lol Tmr no movies hor...? If got, i still can't go. lol
Luntat Well, you are so blur blur sotong and confused this week! Yar, still can ask me when's the exam next week, lol. Dun emo so much lah, she's just 'talking', and abt the 'gay' thingy, just prove to her that you aren't! Haha!
Maurice Yea yea, i'll help. You bring the book tmr ok? Darn, headache! Memory game? More of 'Memory Destruction'!!! Haha!
Norazura Yea yea, another fellar. Ur PMP got wat prob? huh? Can't explain on msn? Must face-to-face den can explain? Lol. Alala, dun merajuk ah. Later i oso sad. Haha! Ok go play ur guitar.... *Dreng dreng!*
Hasniza Headache? DCN? Java? Super busy??? Huh? Huh? Best best?? TELL ME! TELL ME! You dun stress too much ok? Rest alot, if you got dark circles around ur eyes due to inadequate sleep, can just use 'Timon' on it. LOL!
Argh!!! Schizophrenia!!! IMH!!! HERE I COME!!! LOL
Today's a tiring day, even though i took a nap in the afternoon, but my mind's not clear at all. Was helping with Maurice's PMP problem until so pek chek, the program was ok at first, den there's sth wrong liao. Must undo it another time.
After that, i got so bored and cranky i went to play CS on my own. 2 vs 14. So heck lah die so many times and i kept scolding many 'good' words, but luckily my music was playing louder than my voice and my room's locked.
Den after that i got no music to listen to anymore and i opened some old OSTs. Reminded about the past(~duh).
Den got the feeling to watch some old sad animes anot.
I'm still considering.
If i watch now, it'll be finished during sunrise, which is bad. I guess i shld just do whatever possible until i gave up with everything and start to sleep automatically. Just hope i get a nice dream to brighten up my next day. Usually cranky feelings are cured through sleeping....
But this 'schizophrenic conversations' inside my mind keep on talking to me. And whatever questions that i asked to myself, it'll be disturbing if it just can't be answered, like for example 'What is the purpose of my life?', where my mind's not clear at all today, and i can't assure of myself with an almost definite answer to that. And not only that, there's many more questions abt my decisions, the environment and society, people etc. Omg, i think the IMH is radiating too much of their 'spirit powers' to nearby places like my house. lol
While i was sleeping... Aahh~ another new hacker definition.... Check it out...
(Ckick to Enlarge)
Whoever this person is, i'm REALLI sure it's not my fren who typed it. lol it's obvious And i believe the virus is computer-generated or sth like that. Or mayb the hacker wanna tell everyone that he/she exists... Or will it be the old hacker??? Dunno. lol
Ok watever it is, this is to remind whoever who uses MSN. If you come across such thing, just remember it. lol
The hacker's being smart now. He/She uses the current display pic and font. But lucky thing K told me this morning. Haha
OMG!! I just can't imagine how am i supposed to do my projects with this hottie interrupting my window programs. Just can't take my eyes off the desktop wallpaper. Whenever i wanna maximise my window i will just minimise it after 1 min or so, just to be mesmerised by her beauty and hot body. Lol
Btw she's Ayumi Hamasaki. If some of you do not know of her, she's a Jpop star. Hot. It was 'love at first sight' when i see her. lol
Btw things have gone haywire. There's PMP, and IAD. I've done my PMP last night, finished at 5am. So today skipped the 8am lecture. lol I also skipped IAD make-up lecture at 3. Wat for go do revision when the stupid project haven't done yet? lol
So tired, i'm just weird. HAHA~ it just rhymes. lol
I'm weird, coz i'm sleepy when in the bus, but when i lie down on my bed i'm not sleepy anymore. -_-"
Maurice, the Memory Game is just shitty hard! It's not even to my level of understanding of PMP! Lol I still have to finish up HTML by tonight! That's why i planned to sleep now and wake up at night to do, until the next morning to go to school. lol Let a bit of sacrifice for grades! Haha!
I guess i shall blog b4 i go to sleep for tonight...
Dun mind much about ytd's post, it's just something shitty inside my thoughts that i just wanna splurt it out b4 i explode... lol
Ok, so i was studying PMP shit when i get so bored, solved some Sudoku(medium) puzzles and suddenly my eyes got heavy, and drooled on the desk while listening to 'Ghost in The Shell' OSTs after the Gackt songs. lol
But upon listening to GITS OST, which totally reminded me of the show, and sumore both of the series in fact. I recalled the moral of the story of the show.
It made me realise how ignorant and insensitive me and the people around the world are. How we take our lives for granted, and how we passed our days without even cherishing every moments out of them.
There was one part of the show, about how the main female character, Major Motoko, got robotised when she was only 7 years old after a plane accident. Mark that. 7 years old. And that 'time' was the first human-robot technology to the publicised. I believe it was unexpected for her, but she had no choice but to survive. After dying once, she was brought back to life, as a full physical robot body, but with the 'ghost' still in her. It's also what we called it our 'soul' or 'spirit'.
And of course, being robotised is like, being anchored and limited into this 'technology' and are restricted the thoughts into bits and binaries. There'll be only their 'ghosts' for decision-making, but the expressing of feelings is also restricted. Eating-wise will only be for enjoyment and not as a need for living and don't even bother talking about favourite meals or mum's special dish. Sex, smoking, drinking etc are also being categorised as 'optional' and won't damage the internal system. After all that, what's left?? Only then everyone realised that there's nothing left in this world anymore.
I'm not trying to be imaginative or hypothetical or what, but i just knew how it was to witness ignorance in a third person view. How the world passes without noticing you. I think the OST explains it that way. How the world changes within the blink of an eye, and after everything is over, everyone begin another chapter already. Not even knowing what 'life' means. Not even trying to be mesmerised and reminiscing all the past, as our eyes and hearts have been 'blinded' with every work that is pressured on our everyday lives...
What's there to be appreciated anymore?? Everyone's too busy with everything. Time passes, people eventually die. Will the world strive to become a better place to live? Will there be no wars already? Will everyone be happy? Satisfied with everything already??
Nah, i'm just too cranky to think such complex ideas. To me, i think this is world is already imperfect, just like we humans and other living things. We each play a part in this world, each having unique and different talents and ideas. We have a reason to live, and we search for it, discover it. The world's full of wonders and there's lots of information for us to fill and get mesmerised before bringing up to the next world. So just keep living!!! Keep running!!!
Yeah, my mind's too haywired inside. Darn PMP
'How to become a VB Pro in just a day' - this is what i'm doing for today
Yesterday i was just JUST FCUKING PISSED OFF with: My bro My nieces Myself
And emoed the whole night. That was so shit.
Firstly, i didn't slept the whole night the 2 nights b4. Den, when i came home ytd nite i bathe and went to sleep lah.
Usually i got my standard way for my peaceful sleep, which is: Close my bedroom door. Switch off all the lights. Play music thru earpiece for noise cancellation using my phone.
I was damn tired.
Den dunno who the FUCK go open the door and nvr close it. And the toilet lights were on. (Master bedroom) Den my stupid, irritating nieces were so much noisy than usual. And my mum, surely she noes i HATE noisy children and open doors and any FUCKING lights switched on when i sleep, dun even do anything but just to look at it.
Den i of cos FREAKING BUAY TAHAN LAH WTF!!!
Super hot-temper and super shagged, i scolded my nieces and my mum and went black the whole night. Of course i cursed one of my bro too.
Den i realli buay tahan go blast the song on the speaker on my laptop and went to sleep again.
Locked my PC as always, i noticed someone did clicked on it when i woke up and looked at it. (Coz when usually your PC is unclicked, the startup thingy will focus on the box for you to put password and nowhere else)
Must be my bro lah. Idiot.
Lucky thing i changed my password, coz i noe this kind of thing sure confirm to happen one.
Den wat's worse, who on Earth, who go to the toilet, bring handphone in, and earpiece oso wanna bring in, den lock inside for at least 30 mins, dunno do wat b4 taking shower, which takes up 15 mins more. That total takes arnd 45 mins to take shower. And to be in detail, the first 30 mins is TOTAL SILENCE inside the toilet.
And as for children, why the heck do they wanna make so much extraordinary noises just for fun?!?! Why the fuck must they do that?!?! Wat's the benefits of doing so?!?! And why won't my stupid bros understand the word C.O.N.S.I.D.E.R.A.T.I.O.N for others?!?! Aren't they too naive to understand that??? I thought they were way much elder, and they shld be wise enough to show a good example!!! Why shld i give in to them, to their stupidity and inconsideration, and just let myself suffer just bcoz i'm younger and have to just watch their stinking attitude to be stepped on my head?!?! This is just too FUCKING shit nonsense!!!!!!
Haiz, it happens everyday, mark that. I apologise for the frequent vulgarities that i just used. I'm just spilling out my total anger to the fullest of how i was so frust yesterday.
And as for emo, i dun wanna talk about it.......
Today
As for today, a short notice first. Try not to take Bus 159 early in the morning arnd 7 plus to 8. Coz 159 is an ass. There are many super-kiasu passengers over there, and the bus nvr even bother to upgrade to double-decker for so long. I got no chance of entering the bus TWICE for 2 days consequtive. I wonder how will it be for tomorrow.
So like i said, i was late for PMP tutorial. But Seah Ban Wah was kind to let me take the attendance. That was one advantage point of him to make me put all *Excellent* for the Course Feedback. lol
There's this stupid conversation "composed" by some lamers EARLY IN THE MORNING:
~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: haiz ya lor haiz LUNTAT says: we must tahan lol they also tahan us but in a different way ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: haha LUNTAT says: so we tahan here and there tahan liao hor then okay liao lol ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: but then aleast u n her tgt i haven even lor sian LUNTAT says: then happy ending lol whahha aiyah dont worry la you also nvr ask her you want her wait for you to ask you ah siao ah lol haha thats why she pms cos you nvr ask her you kukubird you dickless lol show it to her then LOL hahaha i dare you if you show i treat you wedges lol
~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: lolx LUNTAT says: if you show whole class i treat you wedges + drink lol wahhaha haha wah lol wat food? milk? LOL! ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: biscuit LUNTAT says: natural milk ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: ... LUNTAT says: and plus natural milk LOL wahhahaha or lemon tea you can choose or red plum juice ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: arrrrgggggghhhhhhh LUNTAT says: or you give her spirt sprite lol hahaha ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: ... LUNTAT says: or shamin go eat shit lol whahaha -.- hahahaha sian ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: lolx sian LUNTAT says: yah haha so sian thats why sian lol sch so sian thats why so very sian sch all the food so saltish one cos very sian lol ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: ... LUNTAT says: hahaa lol so lame so sian shamin d doing what sia climaxing in his mind ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: he doin work lor LUNTAT says: lol whahaha wahhaha no la ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: ltr then we copy frm him hahha LUNTAT says: he the other side thinking of that gal then climaxing lol wahhaha ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: haha LUNTAT says: then he got the power to do work or else no motivation lol wahhaa lets boost shamin morale go shamin! ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: go shamin ! LUNTAT says: she is behind you supporting you so later let us copoy lol copy* lol wahhaha anyway ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: yea LUNTAT says: what are we going to do i mean the work ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: see lab sheet n do lor
LUNTAT just sent you a nudge.
LUNTAT says: haha i dont have labsheet lol i only got brown shit i want to pang sai l ol ~InSaneSleepyHo~ says: lolx i tis morning contipaitent lor nw butt pain LUNTAT says: aaha constipation also dunno how to spell your england in china ah? lol
For IAD, we all got nothing to do except for doing our project, coz the tutorial was officially OVER! We've finished all the work for tutorials. So do bo liao things la. lol
Den Ah Lian was so *sound of crickets* type of lesson. Wad do you call it? "Monotonous". So i asked her to speed up, she said i veri selfish. Alamak, so i just shut lah. lol
Simon! So boring yet funny thanks to Tamagokage for his unrightful displays of his passion at the wrong time. lol
It all becomes completely quiet ... from the enwrapped sky and the sun that Scorches the body, you are vanishing What do you wander, searching for? As for myself, all alone …
Inside of cold eyes that are embracing hatred Even if you despise yourself, the pain will not vanish Embrace the eternal sadness
I can only keep remembering you who disappeared My unchanging feelings towards you
Deeply deeply even now, Yes, ….I love you.
Illuminated by the moonlight, the wind even snatches away your name That I sing to myself.
I keep singing that song that you taught me, smiling in the dawn We were counding the tears that returned to the starry sky That night just repeated over and over again Ahh, deeply even now Yes …. I love you
I guess i'm abit emo nowadays. Thanks to Gackt. lol
Late for Elective, do some simple stuffs for the project, den went to koufu, den talk wif the Nora & gang (erm... they are quite good talkers, full of nonsense sometimes) but i can't be bothered much coz of my stupid flu which has worsen ytd.
Den No George lecture(boring)
But we stayed in the lecture rm and talked crap wif Tengku and Janice. lol. Melvyn's a mystical imaginary person who likes to fart alot, but filled with many ideas. haha!
Slacked at compass wif Tat, went to the library to use the lappy. But the internet connection was so shit when i raised the laptop onto my lap only, it went DC-ed. Fcuk. lol
So saw this interesting shop... Hmm... Gotta loan some cash first. Haha
At home was like 'CHIONG AH!' lol so i divide the stupid work to K and Tat, den i rest awhile until arnd 10 plus. I wrapped up the rest of the work until 3am, coz of that Tengku's cocking rubbish on the msn and Tat's nonsenses are coming up.
'It's so gay' lol
Slept at 3 and woke up late, and i saw abit of the dark shades under my eyes. Another Fcuk. Den wearing contacts were so much pain, but ended up can be worn. My hair was so messed up coz it's not properly dried and i went to school.
Today
Presentation was fcuking stupid! My grp went last! And Ang said 'just go straight forward to the point of the final product', so Tat just spam him wif his words, and dunno why the whole class oso wanna laugh, mayb bcoz Luntat = LOL = (Laugh) = Joker Hahahahahah!! Look Tat! I've done an equation of your name here! lol
DCN lecture. Standard lah! Put bag den go makan ah! lol Den crapping wif Eunice gang. And also talk about the band shit issue. But i dun give a damn lah who will be the president, just dun be gay i'm happy can already. lol
1 more hour left was CS-time. Playing was crap lah. Outnubered by 9 enemies and we suck alot today dunno why. Until Tengku take K's place for awhile it was abit better, den i begin to understand the concept and went headshooting as much as i can and the enemies got owned quite alot. lol
So are the drawings - Done by Luntat. lol
So photoshopped his drawings, kinda suck but not bad for some shitty background for the presentation. hahah!
Pretending not to notice I gazed far outside a small window The voice of an angel fills the sky Embraced by the wind
The commotion reflected in your eyes can't hear anything Now it's just "a trick of sweet time" I whispered to the sky
Around and round... In the time left behind, I am now Les miserables I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall Smiling softly
My feelings will never reach you... I'll put them in a sigh
Bathed in the cold wind Imagining these feelings night after night The melody I hum softly Is etched in time and disappears I can't forget the sadness that will I can never go back Even now I can't control myself with these swaying emotions and my body Is about to break...
Where can I go so that my loneliness will disappear? "I always have tomorrow..."
Around and round... In the time left behind, I am now Les miserables I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall Smiling softly
Around and round... In the time left behind, I am now Les miserables I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall Smiling softly
My feelings will never reach you... I'll put them in a sigh
1)I love Younha and Felicia Chin - but i can't marry nor meet either of them, only to idolise them 2)Jpop rock my world! (UVERworld, L'arc~En~Ciel, Gackt, Ayumi Hamasaki, Younha, Yui, Aqua Timez, Sambomaster, Asian Kung-Fu Generation, Nightmare, Beat Crusaders, Orange Range, Atari Kousuke, Malice Mizer) 3)Waking up for school at 8am sux, but i can't help it. 4)I'm bored, confused at the same time - i got mixed feelings at different times 5)Projects rock sometimes, but there ain't enough time for now. 6)I feel like having a gf, but dun think can juggle it wif my studies 7)I didn't perform for open house, coz of poor attendance 8)I'm broke 9)I'm happy wif everyone around me 10)I'm very tired these few days 11)I dun think i wanna come back for NYPSO prac after this week onwards, until i find a very good reason and objective to be there 12)I broke a record of downloading 100++ Jpop songs tonight. 13)I'm inspired to do my projects, i just need to push myself 14)To me, Band just sux, i dunno why 15)This weekend sure to be boring 16)My throat painful 17)It's been some time since i last watched Bleach 18)I'm so gonna spend the weekend wif projects and animes 19)I ate 3 tins of Mr. Potato chips for 5 days. And that's super unhealthy 20)I dun feel shiok at all, there's not even any climax 21)I got bad dreams recently 22)I felt that there's something always missing 23)I think i'm gonna start downloading Naruto 24)New sets of fresh Jpop will do it, it can change my days and my tastes 25)I've been sleeping late for so many days this week
Yesterday, was a stupid day. But it went well though. Got late for first lesson, which is the stupid elective. Den got a call from Nora, "Hey Shamin, where are you ah?"
-_-" Confirm she late... Lol
So i was ONLY outside the lecture room. "Hey, you can wait for me anot? I going to reach there, we go in together lah." Nah, who cares? lol Alex came after that, "Hey Shamin, why nvr go in? Just go in lah." He's right. Mr. Ho's taking the second round of attendance. Me and Alex and some others almost get to the 0.1 part of the attendance. We got 0.5 points instead. So it was better.
And Nora got 0.1!!! lol
Den ahead wif the project, do fishbone diagram. Quite Easy, just point out the causes of the Notebook scheme.
Den lunchtime, ate, met up wif Luntat and some others. He wanna buy the 'Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis', think he forget the whole name and asked for 'Nasi Goreng' only instead. Den get the other fried rice, he said it wasn't that nice. So sad. haha
George lecture was MSN Spamming session. Members were Luntat, Kenneth, Tengku and me. Den Luntat went to spam Eric instead. B4 that was veri funny, Tengku dunno wat happen to him until he shouted "Shit, Fuck!" and it was quite loud, Mr. Tan thought I was the one who said that. lol That was where the spamming starts. haha
Seah Leng WAH!!! 'You GOOD AH!' lesson was soooo 'zzzzzzzz'. Luntat went sleepy and emo emo shit until he wrote 'EMO BIN ISMAIL' on my PAPER! (since when i got change my name to 'EMO' ah?)
Den he took my paper. I thought he wanna copy wat i've copied on the board. Den he drawed many colourful stuffs inside, he put Pikachu wif Bankai and dunno wat crap inside. lol
He's just expressing himself. lol
Den i no mood to do my work liao. Den i started to remember.
Den all the way home i was thinking wanna go band anot dun wan go band anot. Den go canteen, met Jokhie! Luntat and me keep on scolding him for nothing. lol poor Jokhie ahha
Den finally decided to go home.
After that was all a secret......
Today
Today was fun, but skipped cute Mr. Ang's lesson due to last min know about it and also the oversleeping. His tutorial only 7 - 8 ppl went today.
Den late for DCN lecture, but the lecturer heck one. So good. Haha. Actually i can forget abt coming le, coz i only come for one lecture only, but the lecturer takes manual attendance, so must be present no matter wat. lol
After school, went to Koufu, only then Luntat get to eat the delicious 'Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis', thanks to me. lol Den we discussed many things, den go to band room for his Percussion Ensemble prac, den i open my laptop and see my 'freaking' hair. "I need a haircut." I told myself.
Listen to crazy Ridwan's drumming, he's damn good. He played songs from Paramore, den got some of them were from 'Panic! At The Disco'.
Den i got sleepy, so went home, rest awhile den go for a haircut. Went to a saloon, made my hair thin abit, but got abit of difference only. At least not so bad ah.
Den the person went to put some wax and make the hair come out. I dun like that style, but nvm ah, since it was some sort of 'japanese' hairstyle, so wadever lah.
Tmr got 8am stupid PMP lecture. The stupid lecturer's goddam concern about punctuality, and everytime calls ppl name to answer the question.
Yesterday went to clinic. 'Sensei'(doc) said "Eat regular meals, dun eat oily food, dun drink milk, have enough rest. Eat medicine b4 meals 3 times per day."
And i'm enjoying it. Hee
One medicine for gastric pain, the other for diarrhoea. But more of 'taking out the gas' effect. lol
Today was boring. Played CS and scold the four languages. Eat non-stop since awake this afternoon. Watch anime until the series going to finish soon. And not much ppl to chat wif on msn. Listened to songs repeatedly until wanna vomit blood.
I need a new game to fondle with. Let's see... Hmm...
Today IS a much better feeling than yesterday! lol Get to class on time. Did my work properly. And Scored highest for the Heucampus quiz by luck! Yay!
Den IAD tutorial was easy and relaxing. Den DE was abit 'monotonous' coz Ah Lian was not feeling well.
But today is DAMN cold! So after Ah Lian lesson we sit on the shelter seats near the school pond to take some warmth. Me, and the '98% lovers' (lol) and then Nora & gang came oso. Stupid Kenneth non-stop wif his 'Love Calculator' And Luntat wif his 'favourite song' I felt so weak during that time coz of my stomach and my lost of appetite. But i still strengtened up for the rest of the day. Time is short. There's projects to do and i'm having this stupid sickness. Bloody hell. lol And this week is all 8am classes. zzz. Tmr's another 8am class. But luckily ended at 1pm and i can rest for the weekend till i'm healed.
So Simon's class is so.. erm.. dull, coz he's talking like a professional when we are all so goddam blur in memorising all the stuffs and recalling all the confusing networking blah blah shit. lol He's not happy lah. But i think the tutorial can be improved if he just teaches us all the facts and watever to memorise first den after that question us, instead of trying to ask us right on the dot, which makes us 'kan chiong' and went berserk looking for the answers. lol
Today's so shit. I'm sick. My stomach's sick. I dun have any appetite for tasty big meals. That's why i can't even eat my breakfast. Drank hot tea instead.
Now still hurts occasionally. I skipped lunch and dinner. But i'm eating porridge now for supper just to fill my stomach. Went to the toilet quite a number of times. THIS SUCKS MAN!
Tmr school at 8am AGAIN Hopefully i can recover. Sian.
Finally got the heart to blog. lol So today's 1/1/2008, and it's so damn boring day. What's worse, tomorrow's school - at 8am
So tonight i've to polish up everything, All the modules stuffs, Projects, Watsoever shit that's got related to school. I dun even think i have the mood for stupid 'band'. lol
Den i've to sleep early and wake up on time tmr, Go through all the notes, At least get prepared for everything.
Ever since that time, I've always think that 'I've nothing to do in this world anymore' And it sticks inside my brain until i almost can't do anything already
I felt that i regret coming back to S'pore. It's so unpeaceful. So many things to do. But yet no one appreciates anything that we do. So wat's the use for putting so much effort?
I'm so pathetic. I always felt that i hate myself for everything that i do. I've no luck in many things. Selfishly and helplessly living on with this life.
There's no game in this life Yet.
The biggest point in life has not yet come to take place.
ipod/itouch/PSP blue
a pair of good drumsticks
a good Trombone + soft case (seriously)
headphones! the bigger the better lol
personal piano keyboard? lol
