Thanks to this anime that i stayed up for so long! finally reached half of the whole series. It's damn funny! Winry-chan is cute~! But it's also filled with sadness. Although it's at a lower level than Blood Plus, but taking in too much sadness might be bad for health if i can't really supress it good enough.
You need a strong spirit and heart in order to supress any emotional feelings in life. That's how Otonashi Saya(main character) gets to manage in Blood+. lol PS. Tat said Saya's cute, but pls, for goodness sake, don't compare it with your 'J' pls!!!! LOL
The feeling of fear, anger, happiness etc can be overcome easily through experience. But sadness seems to be my weakness though. Sadness can't be overcome through experience though, maybe some sarifice or something? Hmm i need to research more. lol
Usually when i feel sad, mainly comes from stupid sad animes which just tried to disrupt me off through their stories. But my heart gives in and learned every lesson and earned everything from it. What a weak heart though, i'll end up showing more empathy and feminish on the inside. Disgusting, I mean, I'M DISGUSTING! LOL!
Hopefully i can watch Blood+ once again. And also Shingetsutan Tsukihime, as well as many others. Especially those sad ones. Just keep watching them all over again...... DARN!
I obviously know it's my only weakness, but i seemed to get stucked to it. Is it fate? Or am I just being obsessed with it? If i'm obsessed, it couldn't be my weakness, isn't it? An obsession is something that'll make you happy and satisfied, isn't it?
Aside those stuffs, it's started to rain here, signalling my sleepy eyes wanting to sleep. lol XD Well then, if anyone could just tell me the answers towards all this, I can get to rest in peace, at the moment.
Nites ;)
PS: sometimes dun take this post seriously, it's just some stupid emo over anime. it's usual. lol
Yea... Another round of boredom awaits me... Another round of emotionless days happening to me... Another round of loneliness overwhelms me... Another chapter closes...
Well, it's not so bad as it seems. Like many others, i'm also not in the mood to BLOG, so i'm just stating stuffs down here just to keep track of my events so far.
Exams are over! But should i be happy, sad or normal?? The kind of feeling where you do not have anything else to do in life, where you just sit there stoning until you break one day, and also rot until your brains and memories gets washed away through these 'timeless' days.
So what to do? Just continue to sit and rot? Or take a walk out everyday? Don't ask me so. Coz i'm stucked out of nowhere right now, and i'm opening my laptop everyday just to entertain myself. It's like, why the heck do we need this long, boring holiday when we don't even need it, but when it school starts already, it seems that we need the break during those times instead. lol. It sounds stupid but sometimes true indeed.
Ghost Hunt is done! I watched it in the midst of my studying time. Haha! Just hope that i can pass the exam though. lol
Hmm... Speaking of boredom makes me reminded of BAND. Nah, i don't think i would want to waste time on that. I think that rotting is better than that. Lol! Okay i'm so bad. Haha
So what to do? I can't go out too much, i can't afford to waste anymore of my cash, or else i'm gonna spent my whole time being broke like hell. Is there any outing which doesn't have to use any cash at all?
Talking about that, the only answer is to WORK. Yea, who the heck will employ me? lol Yes, i know there's a lot of stores who needs assistants, blah blah blah, but exactly, haiz. I exactly don't know how to get one. I'm too pampered to do so. lol
Wednesday's trip to sentosa... Just remembered. Ok wait. I REMEMBERED. lol Den after that? Hmm dunno. lol The rest of my time is gonna waste on sleeping and slacking. I'm so sick of this shit.
Ever think that Ghost Hunt shows only in real people dealing with paranormal stuffs? Well there's anime too! Lol
What's more, this series is not only filled with paranormal investigations, but also abit of humour, which makes this show... well, like sort of interesting. Heheh!
Woke up just now just to see many ppl msging me on MSN while i was sleeping. Den Tat told me about the Blood+ show i borrowed him the other day, and he's started watching it. Just as i saw him talking about it, i suddenly recalled all the sad parts of the show. It's sad though, but it's just spoiling the start of my day. Lol!
Finally the time has come... Tmr's the first Doomsday. Happening at 9am. And tonight i'm not gonna get any sleep. I'm just gonna go all the way till tomorrow morning.
Haha, just got dumped by Luntat and Kenneth for waking up late and PS them today. lol So i'm just gonna study alone today. Not going out. I'm sure i can make it! Coz i've done it before. So ganbatte kudasai, Shamin-san!
Ytd was full of rubbish lah. First off with the 'study' plan at Luntat's hse, in the end didn't even did any studying. We're just obviously doing many things but studying. And that 'Art of the Devil', i thought there's like some 'nice' scenes or wat, there's only scenes liddat only. It's so plain, when i was in front of Luntat's TV screen, demanding for 'sex sex sex!' until K got pissed off. lol
That main actress actually quite pretty lah, just coz she looks mixed type. lol
Took last train home... Den my vision went black for a second while on the way home. lol. Shiok, but weird. I thought i'll be having coma or wat, so that i can dun take the exams. Haha!
Commander-In-Chief's Great Power - Everything I do, the rest will follow one - I decide everything - I can dump them and get back together as Commander-In-Chief again
Weaknesses - Can't wake up early - Too soft to girls - Must girl call then confirm wake up one - Horny
Hello and welcome to Lala Land, where the world's full of 'nothing' and what do you do? Nothing!! Haha that's~ right~! What do you do next? Haha! Nothing!!!
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I'm so full........ of crap. Don't ask me about how i'm feeling now. It'll only irritate your ears if you were to hear it. lol
I'm so sick.... Of myself. But there's no shit way that i can take some holiday out of 'myself' lol ok that's so lame.
There's something inside of me..... Something that i long kept it inside. And today i felt as if it's gonna burst any sooner. What could it be? Ghost? Nah, that's just some stupid shit trademark that i created. Ghost doesn't exist in me. lol
Hmmm. It looks like i've been keeping hold on to something... Felt some pain down there today. Wonder what it is. I know that i ate dinner until full just now. But that was around many hours ago, can't possibly be the food undigested or something right?
Or maybe there's something inside my brain that's making me very uneasy since i woke up. Usually these kind of things happen when i'm unsatisfied with any big problems or doubts that might affect the future.
Could it be of some meaning? Could it be something like a warning? Hmm, maybe i'm just thinking too much. And i eat too much also these days. So could be the mixed stuffs inside the stomach which makes the brain feel uneasy. lol
Haha! Perfect reasoning. Well let's just see if anything happens tomorrow. It'll be a new day.
Due to this shit, i can't even make the effort to study. lol. Which is making me more insane i suppose, and started talking rubbish, frowning and sighing most of the time. lol
Darn, 5 more days till Execution... lol Am i prepared? Nah.
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It's already uber late. I guess i have to tuck in right now.
Got the song, but forgotten about the translations. So here it is:
Hyde - Daybreak's Bell
Hey, is it that I could only meet you in such a situation? It's sad. Even should it cost my life, I don't want you to kill. Please... The destiny is being engulfed deep into the sea
Please, ride on the wind and ring the daybreak's bell Like a bird, my wishes over their airspace Cross the countless waves. You are facing the future. Go to protect you now. My life I trade in for your pain Stop the fight now!
Hey, why do human beings keep repeating their sins? I hate this blood that flows in everyone's body without any evolution. Judging one another with their instincts, in this land that belongs to no one
If a clear future should come, even flowers can reside on the weapons. My wishes over their airspace Would someone please wake you up. Wake up from this nightmare now If my dream should come true, My life I trade in for your pain How long should I pray until it could reach the sky?
Now the first sunlight shines over the ocean and me
Please, ride on the wind and ring the daybreak's bell Like a bird, my wishes over their airspace Cross the countless waves. You are facing the future. Go to protect you now. My life I trade in for your pain Fly high without turning back, take this wish with you and fly across the sky My wishes won't be brought down by anyone
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Just feeling stupid, i think i still haven't wake up yet. Exams woei~! lol Yeah, and the stupid dawg's been barking and howling for several stupid days already from the next block. FUCK DOGS! IRRITATING CREATURES! And YAY! Shakungan No Shana anime download complete! And also Ghost Hunt anime going to complete, shld be tomorrow.
Hmm...
So many animes, so little time. haha Here's a bunch of list of animes that i wanna watch:
Fate/Stay Night Honey & Clover Honey & Clover 2 Fantastic Children D-Gray Man Monster The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya Tsubasa Chronicle Tsubasa Chronicle 2 Tsubasa Chronicle Movie To Heart To Heart 2 To Heart ~Heart Fighters~ Chrono Crusade Mahou Sensei Negima Gun X Sword Gun X Sword 2 Full Metal Alchemist Full Metal Alchemist Movie Shakungan No Shana Shakungan No Shana Movie Onegai Teacher Naruto
That day, my heart crumbled without a sound Memories that won’t go away no matter how much I break, no matter how much I scream Come flowing into my eyes along with a darkness And I sink into a tomorrow where I can’t even see any colour anymore
I searched nonstop for a day when I’d understand Now I’m just living to lose Even when I’m alone, holding my loneliness inside, thinking “It’s all over” If you turn on the lights... Light shines on me
“Someday the love I keep praying for will come to colour” You told me that, and you live on in my heart Everything is made of colours that are born by fate Now I can paint my future with this hand
In no time at all I get used to loss And even the things I have slip through my fingers The words I wanted to hear before my tears dried Are words that can save someone It's all your fate. You gonna do that “When the light grows stronger, the darkness grows deeper” I’m not afraid to learn that Everything is made of colours born at the edge of our hearts When we open our eyes, we can look at them
A sad breath That blurs the colours I’ve been searching for Without a sound
“Someday the love I keep praying for will come to colour” You told me that, and you live on in my heart Everything is made of colours that are born by fate Now I can paint my future with this hand The tendrils of light have illuminated it once again
Just drawing... Colours in light and darkness And take it... Colours in light and darkness Now I can repaint it all with this hand Even the comforting colours that lay out of my reach
P.S: Happy Chinese New Year I can slack for some time. lol
I woke up late as usual, only to be waken thru falling down from my double-decker bed. lol And congrats! My nieces are away! hehe They're at the Childcare Centre form 8 - 6pm every weekdays, except for holidays. So hurray! lol
So it's another damn slacky day today, firstly the weather is cool, secondly the temperature's just nice for sleeping, thirdly there's realli nothing to do, fourthly, i can't think of anything else but to just sleep. lol
Until at night then i started to do my routine work, which is open the lappy. lol Tmr going to school in the morning. Wtf Simon says, Lab S441 in the morning can look for him for DCN past year papers. So how 'morning' is 'morning'?? lol nvm I think i should just come at 10am or wat. Den sian alone. lol Den got that stupid elective's meeting. Dunno do wat there.
GD!!! FUCK!!! I DUN WANNA SAY ABT THAT SHIT MAN! So fcuking bugging my asses up.
Ok, i'm not in the mood for fun, coz i noe tmr is hell. I just got the feeling of watching movie when this kind of shit comes splattering on my fucking face. lol
Today i dun realli feel much of talking... Yes, i feel talkative today but i just can't realli explain much.
Firstly, there's 9 episodes left of Blood+. Super sad show. If the show ends, there'll be one good show done. And i'm left with nothing much. I always hate this - there's always things that come and go. What comes around goes around. Sometimes we just feel that we could just stay in the middle of everything forever. Where all the fun is, where all the happenings, the joy and happiness stays.
Usually after every show i'll always had many thoughts about my life. "What's my story?" And where does it end? What type of ending am i gonna be directing for my story? When will the climax of my story be? When's the happiest part of the story? When's the saddest part? How long is one chapter of the story? Who are the main characters, the side-kicks and the bad guys? Will it be an action-paced, a comedy or a love story?
And most important of all, will it be a good story???
The reason why i'm always used to watching animes, is because of the perfect acting of the characters of the story, and the matching faces and gestures of the characters, although they are in 2D form. They showed perfect wordings and feelings than some noob actors whose face sometimes don't match with the whole picture of the story. And also, i won't be idoling actors, because the anime characters themselves don't even exist in real form! The most important thing is just to take the moral of the story and learn from it, as well as other useful information.
I'm not saying that celebrities suck. I still do love some of them, mainly Jpop and also many others. To me, idoling celebrities too much, be it acting or singing, is more of wasting money, time and effort. Just the thought of appreciating them, to me is good enough. Maybe wise celebrities think so too. What's more important is how we learn from them and apply it into our lives. That'll be the greatest fruit of all. What for getting mesmerised and idol their singing and acting, it's their life, you are not them, and you do not have whatever they're having right now, you're just feeling it. So why not apply it into your life? Although it might not work, but trying has already shown that you dare to do it. You have the will to have the kind of ability.
To me, i don't go that far for singing or even acting. I might just suck or get bored on those. I rather go improve on my own life, through their acting. Those type of Korean of Chinese drama shows are simply not my type, especially Korean. So the best is still animes.
Well, i think i'm talkative tonight. lol I might already become a part-time advisor for certain things, seeing how bored the situation really is.
Still haven't start studying. Mayb it's still early, i might forget wadever i studied during the exam time if i start now.
Darn, until the time comes to study, anyone can contact me to do so. Just as long as you're decent and good-looking learner who's willing to take a lot of information from me, or vice-versa.
Tonight's environment is so suitable to be enjoyed and be emoed about... So tonight can be used as my thoughtful emo night. lol
Enjoy enjoy... Hmm...
The horoscope said i'm in a pensive mood today, but i think more as of thoughtful mood, despite after all the boredom. And there's no school, it feels like last year! Haha! All the emo days, some of which are very relaxing moments. I just can't afford to miss it!
Hmm... I just thought of many things that happened so far... It's almost to a year of study in NYP and i bet i have changed over the past one year, where i used to be a you-dunno-who's-this-guy until now, watever i'm called by you. lol
Inside my mind now is like, a flashback of every sequencial happenings in poly life. And how i managed to pull everything off to get back into the circle. During that time i used to think of how i am supposed to move on without having to achieve some things in my life, and also to overcome all the sadness and emotional feelings and start to move on. And now here i am, being the future from the past and being the present for the future. lol. (sounds confusing) Well, i just do not know what i should be saying but right now i just wanna be thankful towards everything. I just feel stronger right now just by seeing my weaknesses during the past.
I just wanna thank everyone for making life possible.
I wanna thank my frens for pushing me throughout the harshest moments in life.
I wanna thank my family for giving my basic living needs and also having a home and family possible.
And most of all, thank God for making all this possible.
ipod/itouch/PSP blue
a pair of good drumsticks CHOCOLATE PHONE!!
a good Trombone + soft case (seriously)
headphones! the bigger the better lol
personal piano keyboard? lol
