I almost shouted it in front of my laptop screen at home.
Lucky thing my music overwhelmed my voice inside my room which is locked.
Poor laptop, it's not that i hate you, it's coz of some things that just made me fucked up just by looking at wadever that i wanted to look on my laptop. It's my usual stuffs to look at some things, just that it's got too plain it's got me haywired, and it's boring it got me irritated.
And i found out that whatever happenings that's left hanging there just pisses me off. Whatever happening that is. Be it myself or someone else. That's why i hate myself sometimes.
And what's with today man??? Fucking bad luck? What's with the stupid auntie at the bookstore not wanting to change my lecture notes, and wtf? It's your damn fault that i got a fucking maths book instead of my EC book, and i want a change you motherfucker! I'm so not gonna buy from your place anymore!!!
I guess i just got too fucked up till my stomach got mistreated with a lowly-made pasta till it got me being unable to operate normally. Toilet 4 times today, and it's still upset. FUCK!
Virgo and Independence: Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.
Virgo and Friendship: People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.
Virgo and Business: Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.
Virgo Temperament: Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.
Virgo Deep Inside: They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.
Virgo in a Nutshell: Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.
Virgo Love, Sex and Relationships
What it's like to date a Virgo Man: The Virgo man has a cool exterior with a sensitive interior. He has tremendous respect for a woman and will treat her like and equal. He likes woman who stir his emotions because he is reluctant to express his own emotions, which he tries and this often causes conflict not just inside himself, but it spills out into the relationship. This man takes patience and understanding. He will not get extremely close so do not try to enter his psyche and become closely entangled, this will make him feel threatened. He needs a classy woman who is not impulsive or unconventional. He leads a predictable life and a predictable woman will make him feel safe. He is perfect for the down to earth, conventional woman. He won't be romantic and sweep you off your feet, but he will be by your side and be very loyal. This man's sensuality comes out with time. For the woman who wants a stable, solid relationship with a visible, smooth sailing future is perfect for the Virgo man.
How To Attract Virgo: Virgos need intellectual stimulation. Impress them with facts and details. Always try to come to conclusions when having a conversation, they do not like topics that go nowhere, they like conversations to come to a close or consensus, even if you agree to disagree. They are very conventional people so do not do anything spontaneous or force them to make a hasty decision, they take their time and think intensely in their mind. They are not slow, their brain is working evaluating everything. Do not attempt to probe inside their mind because their emotions are pretty much closed off until the relationship is solid, and they will decide when that time will be. Virgos are natural worriers, do not let this get to you. Do not give them cause to worry because this makes them get wound up like a spring. Let Virgo take the lead, they like to be in control of what is happening. Keep the date tasteful and do not be vulgar, they like calm and classy surroundings and people.
Virgo Erogenous Zone: The stomach area is very sensitive to Virgo. Stroke it, circle their belly button with your finger, give them a light belly massage. This makes them feel warn and will help open them up a little bit. Be gentle, no sudden moves or vicious acts like biting or slapping, this will startle them and cause them to retreat.
Sex With Virgo: As time progresses, sex with Virgo becomes more and more sensual. These are not the type of people who will engage in a one night stand, they are too reserved and prudish for that. Expect sex to be direct and straightforward, no fancy moves, places or games. Virgo is not a highly sexed zodiac sign and does not place much importance on it, if anything they consider sex to be gross and dirty. Once a relationship is solid, Virgo is willing to experiment a little bit with techniques and foreplay but like everything else involving a Virgo, it takes time to develop once all the advantages and disadvantages have been thoroughly weighed out.
Gosh, it's totally anti-climax right here. I feel like dying soon.
I just want to be happy, but there's currently nothing that makes me happy, what's worse is that i don't get whatever that i want.
School's been bad. Got tests and quizzes but i never even bother to touch the book. And this week 7 is like the after-effects from last week? All the reports, assignments, tests etc. those last-min shits that we did... lol
And i'm kinda living in a no-life manner right now. Come school, go home, sleep, PC. NOTHING FUN AT ALL!!! WTF IS THIS?!?!?
I used to hate the rain usually, coz of all the wetness and drench, and might bring up the emo mood etc. But i kinda like it now, coz i'm so gonna sleep right now!
I realised that i've been using the F word more often ever since the start of the semester. But the thing is, that some of the situations are really at the boiling points, or maybe there is something that's so extreme till that i used the F word for exaggeration.
Other than the bad F word, there are also other words starting with F. lol
Like at home, my 'f'ather will sometimes keep on talking to my mum about 'f'ishes and some of those that he had caught while fishing most of the days. And my mum will be thinking of whether to 'f'ry it, or wat-so-ever method of cooking that she had devised. lol
But i still prefer seafood(prawns, sotong, CRABS, scallops) than fish, i think! XD So craving lol
In school, people usually don't see me eat that much, saying that dunno wat i'm on a diet or sth. To me, i don't think eating is necessary when you're studying, isn't it? And wat's more, i DO eat, but just that some people just don't happen to see me eat. So next time come follow me eat if you wanna see me do so! Dun tell me that you expected me to eat 24/7 so that everyone can see it LOL
And about eating also, people usually thinks that with my body size, i'm not 'f'at, but c'mon man, i think i'm alr at my most unhealthy state already lah! Expect me to get fatter? i think i will die earlier of being so unhealthy first! But hmm, is there a way to get FAT HEALTHILY??? LOL
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This really makes me feel jealous. Coz i always wanna do the same thing to someone but think can meh? Singapore here no luck xD. Unless if someone proves me wrong =X Edward agrees with my opinion that, sometimes anime just makes you jealous! lol And it's especially h*****!!! ROFL!
Some deep thoughts and amendments from my strategies... Should i come up with some other plan?
Some deep thoughts and amendments from my strategies... Should i come up with some other plan?
My horoscope today says: You know and like what you know and like. Don't judge others' beliefs. Maybe you'll learn from them, even if it's a lesson in tolerance.
Horoscopes are just some blabbering information lah eh, sometimes i don't even fully understand what it means, just a little bit of understanding only that i know of.
Today i got hooked into a personality conversation, where i got someone shooting at me about opinions of my personality (you noe who) but i should really thank this person for giving me a straight reflection of my style, or attitude. So yeap =) i'm not being sarcastic, but to really thank you for it. And also to another person who said that i 'jual mahal' (you noe who also) which i always heard from you. Got me a little thinking, but i still can't pass through the problem.
Being noted that i have my very own precautions and strategies into getting the girl that i like.
I've seen far too many cases, making me feel that getting into love is not just in a snap, even though the girl really likes me so much. Because she can always say no to relationships, due to some other reasons. You noe, humans are really weird, and we evolve to have much much more different personalities and the way we think will evolve too.
The first thing to know whether the girl likes me or not, is to find out.(of course) Second thing that i always do is, Act Normally Thirdly, i'll either make friends with her, or she make friends with me, talk to me, get to know me, wadever it is. If the first plan doesn't work - which is to make friends with her - then i shall wait for the second option.
Why? No point knowing someone who's not interested in you, i think. Even though i might be interested in her i'll be just crapping all the way and spoil things up, coz most importantly we can only talk about general things and we can't joke around as if we're childhood friends, isn't it? Logic enough?
IF let's say the plan already succeeded, still, Act Normally. No point to be so direct also, coz it'll suck if she knows that you like her right from the start. Also might mean that you wanna know her coz you interested and you're also judging only from her looks, and not from the inside. Isn't it???
Once if i already know her quite well already, if things work out, we can get to do things together, met up somewhere just bcoz it's school, work or just friends going out. Anything to do with her shall be done. If there's totally nothing to do with her don't go and 'gay kiang' be a nosey posey there, she might get irritated sometimes. UNLESS if she bring you along. AND ALSO must see whether you're free and have nothing to do also, remember, always set priorities first. Don't waste all your effort just to see her, you'll be as good as destroying your own life, which eventually goes into a 'no future, only her' kind of rule inside your head.
If things get lucky, just be yourself. Or rather i should say i'm being myself. Remember to be polite, say hi when meeting her, most importantly don't act so suspiciously, it'll spoil everything. If you're really that close, then it's okay with it. Act as if there's nothing that happened between the two of you.
Just be aware. That's all. If you can feel it, means you are. Don't let it just flow away. If you need assurance, just run away.
Yeap, as it says "if you stick to the girl whom you like so much, she'll run away, making you chase after her all the time. BUT if YOU yourself run away from the girl whom you like so much, and if she comes back looking for you, means she misses you so much!"
From here on, there'll be two options. And you must be completely be mentally prepared and emotionally prepared. Coz if she really comes to you, means it's something that's quite good, but depends on how she comes back to you. But if she doesn't care/don't give a damn about it/the feeling is gone, well, just don't walk back, just move on ahead.
Why? No point having feelings for a person who doesn't have feelings for you. It'll be one-sided love, And it'll be very hard. If you 'gay kiang' again and turn back, you're really that crazy, or you really can't take it to miss her so much, or you're just pure hopeless guy who seeks some love attention from the girl. And if you do so, it'll be just a gamble! It'll be like, 25% probability? Firstly, you must make sure that she knows that you like her. That's 50% of whether you wanna tell her the truth or not. And secondly will be her decision. That'll be even more halved the probability.
If you think it's unfair, then why does many guys get rejected most of the time, especially if the guy is already super perfect for the girl?
I'm not worried about whether i get rejected or not(coz i'll never confess). Just wanna find out whether the girl really have true feelings towards you. If she truly loves you, she won't run away and die die she wants you, isn't it?
Like i said, i never confess. Why is it so? We're living in a world that has evolved many weird hormones and super-mixed genes. Like i said it's not just like in a snap that you can get a girlfriend, maybe especially for my life. You just do not know the complexness of human lives, wadever happened to them during their past, and who noes, something happened to them last time that they just didn't want to do that certain something, and what's worse will be the stupid fact that they do not wanna say it!!!! Just what the heck do they want to do in their life, if they just keep everything to themselves, and people will think that you're just a weirdo loner type of thing who thinks that keeping everything to yourself is that cool.
Sometimes it makes me think that confessing is just useless. It might only bring you down to get fooled by the other person.
Okay, i'm nuts. This uber long post is so fucked up. Cheers to my uttermost feelings.
1) I got bored waiting for my good ****. And wonder wat's that??? I won't tell you. It's for me to concern and for you to find out.
2) I'm a devil. But why am i an angel? Records of my helpings: Last Sem: Visual Studio(I still freaking rmb that, i think i helped out with 4 people's work. This Sem: Electronics Communication: I did for Ru Feng's e-quiz and scored 20/20 while i only got myself 18/20 for that particular quiz!!! Maurice kept on bugging me for two days during the weekend asking me for the answer for the quiz questions. I memorised every answers. And i did for Sarah's just by anyhow tikam, got for her 14/20. Java: passed my Lab3Ex1 to K, Eggy, Tqah. Think got some more people who's got the same work as me lol. OSM: Right now i'm doing the whole installation of Windows Server and Linux Ubuntu on my Virtual PC, for Luntat's sake. Coz his laptop don't know why can't partition the disk. OMFG throw away his useless laptop!
No i'm not trying to action down here, just that why i'm so angelic when i wanted to be a bad person? It's pulling myself down, sometimes i just wanna be stupid, so that no one gets help from me. XD
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Den now wat? I'm struggling myself for other people's sake. Think it's a good thing?
Konichiwa! Now it's freaking boring break right here at NYP, piled up with the f*cked up last-min assignments and reports *thumbs up!* -____-
And i bet many people also got complain about this week inside their blogs, or rather they're just cursing throughout this whole week, in four different national languages etc. lol
Actually thought of changing my blogskin during the weekend, but too slack, or shld i say, slack in the first minutes but rushed during the last minutes. LOL
After today, still gotta do OSM shit report and also to install that freaking i-don't-know-how-to-install Ubuntu Operating System(OS) into my Virtual PC. Fuck. Just too fucked up.
And tmr there's EC test, and i still yet to find my EC book! It's either someone took it without my notice, or i really freaking lost it. Argh!!!!!!!!!!
So from now on, maybe you guys can suggest to me any topic or it can be anything, that i can put inside my very blog here.
Can be polls(i dunno how to do polls), some personal qns, a certain topic, some of my opinions, jokes(maybe), gossips(i like!!), some cursing also might help me to AT LEAST decorate this blog!!!
And anyone is welcome to suggest. Open to anyone, but only limited to people whom i know or are quite close, related, friends, buddies etc.
So can kindly just suggest onto the tagboard at the side
This song got me freaked out for the past few days. Firstly, it's EMO Secondly, it's a SAD song Thirdly, i listened to it almost everyday, i never thought of getting sad through this song, but i just happen to click on it everyday without fail. Fourthly, i tried listening to it repeatedly while sleeping, and it really coordinates with my dreams, and it got worsen, you noe......
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And okay, don't ask me about school right now, after this i really wanna have a good night's sleep. Don't stress me about stupid schoolwork.
I see many love-love emo. It's like last year, where the emo season comes in spreading worse than virus that attacks every teenager's mind. But then... I was chatting with a fren on msn. Coz her nick was quite the emo-ish. But she said that "it's just for fun" only. -.-
There was another one, where the nick is forever emo, but nothing has happened in his/her life. There's no progress, not even a single movement...
And speaking of that, me too, has never even started my movements. Haven't give a thought about it neither. But dun worry, shamin-san always has his own 'targets'!! Coz he's never fail at doing that. And as always, mine is always the first-class, coz i'm a very choosy person, a bastard, the kind where you wanna smack him for choosing such an extremely pretty girl, when there are ppl waiting for him right in front of his eyes. LOL
But nah, dun think so... -.- I'm just in my own world of imaginations. XD
Speaking of which, i got talked to Melvyn about his 'Top Ten Most Pretty Girls in Lecture Hall Show'. You see this fella has a very nice way to release his own stress in his own way during lectures where he introduced such a thing. And his 'flavour' of girls are superbly perfect, which kinda released me from stress during that moment too! LOL
And yup, Thursday ended up in a very good way, plus with the dinner at Pizza Hut. LOL
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Tmr got band at FTP. And i've forgotten how to go there!!! LOL I noe it's take 238 from TP interchange there, so just see how tmr. lol
Next week is 3 reports! T_T
And also Monday is Vesak Day! And also Maurice's b'day LOL Wat shld i give you as present? **** Videos??? LOL
My Honey & Clover is finishing soon! It's sad eh? Of course, it's very sad. UBER sad. And i also gotta finish up most of other anime too! Only then i can finish up everything, and there'll be nothing in my way anymore. *Thumbs Up!*
Some random. Cool emo pics. lol
So this is how you portray as a musician...???
Handsome guys and pretty girls.. They really suit the role of musicians!! lol
Bedroom, toilet, kitchen, living room... Lift, bushes, car park, void deck... MRT, bus, taxi, car... Hotel, chalet, classroom, office, storage room...
Wat are these? LOL
Wat am i trying to say right here??? LOL
Why am i writing this?? JUST FOR FUN!!!
And most importantly, while reading the headline,
What's your first impression of it?? LOL!!!
Yea, those were the times where, i used to talk nasty things, sometimes put them on my msn nick or personal message etc. etc. and many people just can't take it anymore, they can't stand all my talkings... Coz why??? It's human's natural instincts. So Grow Up!!! It's time to learn more. Don't just say EEE to such things like how a primary school kid usually does, but why are you thinking of them instead???(the headline above) LOL!
Well, if you're not thinking anything nasty, den it's good! I respect you a lot, coz you've been immund to such things and therefore "graduated" from these funny funny stuffs. LOL!
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Well pardon me for being nasty, but just wanna entertain myself and bloghoppers coming to my blog. LOL!
Talking about school, today is a verrryyyy sleepy day for me. In fact, i think it's more of a sleepy day for almost all of singaporeans. lol Labs were as boring as staying up late at night doing nothing, but Java was fun. Why? Coz 'happy lecturer' just spoke and got glibberished in his words, and he accidentally said 'fuck' and everyone was like wtf??!!?!?? He didn't realised it, and didn't get the joke, coz everyone was laughing, and that time i was about to ask him a question. Lucky thing i maintained and asked him properly, if not LOL!
It's damn cold today lah, i sleep so shiok, till i got my 'human' alarm clock (noisy nieces just came back home from school) that abruptly woke me up till i 'gaman dekinai'(can't take it anymore). LOL!
For EC, it's total -___- during the lab. First thing, it's all the way doing tutorial questions for 2hrs straight. lol
Having lucky to survive that, i went straight home. Got lotsa thinking on the way home, like wat song i'm gonna listen later, wat i'm gonna do later, wat to eat, whether to continue sleeping anot. lol I got so motivated in school when it comes to schoolwork and homework, assignments etc. but when i reach home already, totally had no mood to do ANYTHING!!! Ranging from eating/drinking to finishing up some assignments, all i did was 1)watch animes 2) listen to song 3)disturb ppl 4)sleep/emo shit.
Fuck life.
I'm so wanna migrate and work in Japan instead.
Or become a famous paranormal investigator will be good also *thumbs up!
Speaking of that, i wonder what are the japanese species of 'ghosts' down there. Down here we got 'kakak cantik', 'bantal peluk', 'yang hijau', 'benda hitam besar'(i dno wat is that) LOL!
1) i need concentration of my studies and other stuffs, and not about a girl 2) i dun wanna be close, coz i dun wanna hurt someone 3) these stupid feelings is so getting into my nerves, it's got me so contradicted 4) tendency going mad, crazy and sometimes sad. tampering with my feelings alot 5) work delayed, resulting in last-minute stress + emo shit = jump down from the building!!!
stupid shit
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i got 3 stupid reports to do, due next week. shiok T_T and sometimes i wonder, we're not reporters, so why still reports? thought we're only supposed to do IT and IT and more IT that's it! Lol!
She looked like Jap ver. of Avril Lavigne. In my opinion that is. lol She can't act cute, coz she's HOT! lol
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I want: -a new mouse -takoyaki(halal) -learn japanese chess -learn mahjong. lol -meet someone i haven't met for a long time -skip school and slack whole day -watch a jap live concert. be it Aya Hirano, UVERworld, L'Arc~En~Ciel. too bad, s'pore dun invite jpop artists =( -have ***(think any way you like, i'm not telling you the censored parts lol) -live by myself
Seriously, i hate to sleep, especially nowadays where there's lots to worry about and lots to do, like watching some 'shows', games and also wasting some brain juice only to worry about school work. And i haven't done my OSM thingy, gotta buy some CDs and burn them, quickly start with the work. lol
But i'm currently sleeping a lot, worse than a pig. 8hrs of sleep is fine, but more than that is absolute waste of effort. But the kind of sleepiness don't stop one. How? And what's worse, i've been receiving lots of dreams and nightmares. lol. Nightmares are cool, scares the shit out of you once in awhile and it's fun, but sweet dreams might bring forth a bad reality, and thus opening through a very bad start of the day. lol
Speaking of scaring the shit out of me, that night i tried watching some ghost shit in youtube, till it's 6am and i didn't realise it at all. lol. And i continued them the next day, which wasn't that effective at all, coz it's daylight.
Den continued with other shows and stuffs, like my all-time favourite some Robot Wars, where they build remote-controlled robots, challenge with each other with powerful and dangerous weapons in the battle ring filled with many dangerous pits and traps. Yea, it was one of my favourite ^^
If it's not some Robot Wars, it'll be racing. Remote-controlled racing cars. lol. If there's boats and helicopters, it'll be more fun! I love helicopters, can fly, can move carefully. lol
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Leah Dizon. A model, singer, actress, and TV personality in Japan, born in Las Vegas, Nevada, US. Her ethnicities include Chinese, Filipino and French.
Yea, this is the only thing that i can think of. lol I'm gonna play Cabal later, so it's like gonna be all-nighting or sth like that. But that's later, if i play now can't get to settle some things on msn first. lol. And when everything's cooled down, only then i can start playing, but now it's still boredom. lol
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This week is damn unmotivated to go to school lah. Stupid shit. Got 3 days of latecoming, but luckily the lecturers are those who dun care much, just that it'll be hard on me to pursue the modules, i think i've left out quite alot already, especially on C.Maths 2. It's so shit that you can't even understand a single thing, learning something that's so unrelated to life and death, not even the purpose of living and surviving. It's a completely useless module, i still dunno why my course learned such a thing, the lecturer didn't even tell us what has it gotta do with IT and Electronics or even Programming etc.
I dun wanna say that i wanna get screwed up with that module, coz in the end i still gotta take the common test, assignments etc. etc. if it means failure, gotta retake the module, which is so shitty lah! lol I'm in need of a Computer Maths tutor. Tutor me personally will be best! Anyone help me please, i'll be greatly love you forever! LOL
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Recently got the habit of 'not-eating-dinner' Syndrome. Dunno why, but just doesn't seemed to be hungry. Hungry is still hungry, but my appetite is very low. Eat abit is good enough. And oh ya! Gotta decrease on sugar level, coz i don't need fats for this kind of weather lol. So yeah, i just knew it and must not take sugar that much. lol
Shit, shit, got so many stuffs to do, damn disorganised. lol But nvm, tmr can try to settle all. lol
Another version of the pic. It looks so great i'm going crazy. lol
I just can't believe the lyrics for this song. lol
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SuneoHair - Split
If these dull emotions could just Disappear sooner without a word It would have been easier
When I gazed at you I saw myself trembling in your eyes I opened my mouth as though I had a blank expression
We went on our separate paths At that crossroad It pains me so much that We may never meet again
Gathering emotions which are lacking Things that were warmed just a while ago have grown cold I couldn’t believe something like that Just how long am I going to hold on to the same words? How long am I going to hold on…
When I continue to gaze at you The seasons changed in your eyes My new light which I’ve not known before
We will walk our separate paths Now, at that crossroad I can never look back again My feelings are too overwhelming
You embrace me in the night that is about to disappear Entangling me with your body which has grown cold I feel that something is lacking Just how long have I been holding on to Lies and sighs to the point of falling apart?
Gathering emotions which are lacking Things that were warmed just a while ago have grown cold I couldn’t believe something like this Just how long am I going to hold on to the same words? How long am I going to hold on…
12.00pm Yes, that's exactly what i mean. It's been 2 - 3 wednesdays that i just simply sure got fucked up by some shit bad luck that overwhelms me.
I just wonder what's my next bad luck will be. Fuck
3.00pm I was on my way home, waiting for 159 or 72 at blk P there, any bus which has got space to sit. 72 arrived first, but there's alot of ppl, so dun bother to take. Den 159 arrived. Okay! Gotta ride it!
1) Their emo shit 2) How 'coward' or brave they are 3) How blind and stupid some people are in some situations (like for example, if there's a pretty girl who cares about you so much, why won't you just 'itadakimasu!' and just take her instead of someone far away who's not even care to think about you. lol) 4) How they struggled in order to confess 5) And yup, if it's a good ending or not, it's still a good lesson learnt. lol
Yup, i'm currently love-bound by this anime. It's so painful but great, in a sense that i dun think i wanna take this course of love, coz it creates lots of problems. lol I'd rather prefer other people to start it first, den take it as something that fate has done to me. haha Stupid, weird, but that's what i think my type of love should be. Like i said, i'm uncool. lol. Something that fate makes it happen. So right now, thank goodness that it's not time yet!!! XD
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Yea, school is of course, stupid. But things went very easily, especially during labs and etc. Tmr will be another easy day for me, just hope that bad luck doesn't turn to me. Lol.
When it comes back to school, it'll be the most boring moment of my life! Especially what, Singapore Schools.
Firstly, you'll be wasting money to buy food in school, instead of making a nice 'obentou' or received one, by the girl who likes you, in school. lol
Secondly, it's farking hot during the journey in school, how i wished there's four seasons here, but there aren't, coz sadly, we're near the equator, which is why makes this stupidly hot in here.
Thirdly, what's the problem with Singaporeans these days? I'm not mentioning the normal ones lah, but there are some which really makes me damn pissed off. Fancy living in Singapore when you're just a typical failure show-off.
Gahh, talking about it just makes can't take it any longer. Gotta stop it.
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Ok, so just wanna hope that this coming week, just hope that there's lesser stuffs to do, lesser stress and problems and also no sadness and no emo shit. I'll be just freaking pissed off if i'm gonna waste my time doing such fucking things.
Haiz, wonder when will be the time when i start on my permanently permanent full-time career job, where i'll be working in an office, with cool neat clothes to wear, and there's friendly and pretty colleagues to work with, to have a peaceful cup of tea with, to enjoy with. And then coming back home to relax, go here, go there, without having any troubles and problems, where life is right where it's supposed to be. lol
These few days i'm just feeling happy, i'm just beginning to feel weird about it man. Wanna say that i already have my first girlfriend, nope. Wanan say that i won some lucky draw or 4D, no such thing happening, and i'm not that lucky to win that kind of prize. Just damn weird, but i like this feeling. Or maybe it's just that i've loosen my guard. But there's also nothing to be alert of, right now. lol
And also, i've got a pretty weird flu. I can't really say if it's really a flu or not, coz it comes and it goes. Friday night and Saturday i got a very welcoming flu, thought that i already got attacked. Den today, it's gone! But i was really sneezing quite alot, quite often. I think since Thursday i got the symptoms already, gahhhh. Just damn weird. I've gained some weight. After like 2 - 3 weeks, gained 1kg more. lol Now i'm 59kg, pretty heavy. Almost to 60 liao. But still healthy weight, so, it's still good. lol
I think i'm already too happy and contented these few weeks. But if sadness comes, it'll be a total critical damage to myself. So DUN BE SAD!!! BE HAPPY ALWAYS!!!
That's wat i always think and wanna think always...
Coz i know that, it seems pointless for someone boring like me to be sad at this time, out of a sudden, and also most importantly, for no reason. And that's so uncool. lol Secondly, it'll be such a freaking hassle for the whole process to settle, which is - emo-ing, which is also called 'soul-searching', and then sitting down doing nothing but to think and think. Stare at the whole past, and the rest i dunno wat will happen. See? Just wat the fucking waste of time to do such a thing i would guess... So on the contrary, i wun waste time on such thing - let me be the uncool, i should do wat i want right now, think of wat i wanna think and concentrate more on School and Cabal and also not to forget, Animes. lol
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I realised that i didn't post anything about school, coz school is boring. But wat makes it happening, which is - my class 0708. lol I think so. I have my likes and dislikes, but i will just feel damn weird if i'm don't have my place in my class during school. haha. Especially today during Comm Skills lesson. Omg! So rowdy! haha! lol
And the rest were plain ones, like Wednesday, 8am - 3pm. zzz. Good thing was, thursday was holiday. 8 - 5pm lessons all burnt out! Dumped away! LOL! So that day was supposed to spend on Cabal, but the stupid CS assignment got into the way, so i ended up having a headache and being very batty. lol
I shld get sleeping soon. OMG! it's 6am! LOL
PS: UVERworld makes me happy and high Aqualung is nostalgic
Hi, back to blogging coz i can't concentrate on doing my project. lol
These few days been having the 'happy virus' or so-called being happy, i think.
But it's so happy and enjoyable till i forget to come back here to blog! LOL
Damn, too busy, can't watch alot of animes nowadays. Together filled with Cabal, it's so OMG!!! And now, what shld i do? I gotta type out the CS scenario planning and presentation etc. TOTALLY NO MOOD FOR THAT!!! T_T
Recalling my last week (or was it the first week) sickness (which was, being unable to tell and differentiate and feel for a chio bu anot, which was that there was alot of chio bus this year round) i think that i'm back to that stage already. lol
1)Obsessed to Cabal these few days 2)Went into some Japanese Girls Website during Java lesson 3)More ****** 4)Tire myself with these things till i no time to think of anything else!!
That's Why~!!!!
Aya Hirano
Sometimes i just wonder, why this picture ended up in my folders. @_@
Anyways, hurray to Aya Hirano! \(^o^)/ Good singer and voice actress (seiyuu). LOL
ipod/itouch/PSP blue
a pair of good drumsticks
a good Trombone + soft case (seriously)
headphones! the bigger the better lol
personal piano keyboard? lol
