Many unexpected things happened, really in my bad times.
I'm in the brink of giving up everything that i've started. And stay under my low profile, avoiding every problems that i'm gonna face.
What i need to do right now is to regain back my determination. Get back on track. Continue whatever i've stopped. Right now whining won't solve all my problems.
When Im alone I dream on the horizon And words fail; Yes, I know there is no light In a room Where the sun is not there If you are not with me. At the windows Show everyone my heart Which you set alight; Enclose within me The light you Encountered on the street.
Time to say goodbye, To countries I never Saw and shared with you, Now, yes, I shall experience them, Ill go with you On ships across seas Which, I know, No, no, exist no longer; With you I shall experience them.
When you are far away I dream on the horizon And words fail, And yes, I know That you are with me; You, my moon, are here with me, My sun, you are here with me. With me, with me, with me,
Time to say goodbye, To countries I never Saw and shared with you, Now, yes, I shall experience them, Ill go with you On ships across seas Which, I know, No, no, exist no longer; With you I shall re-experience them. Ill go with you On ships across seas Which, I know, No, no, exist no longer; With you I shall re-experience them. Ill go with you, I with you.
Friday ended me up with a slight cold and blocked nose.
-_-"
I don't know what to say already. I'm tired, i've no mood no motivation and no morale. Yea talking about lucky day then. "Lucky" (i'm just being sarcastic)
The problems just keep piling up. It's too obvious to count. I'm cursed. Don't touch me.
feeling totally f*cked up. i'm not prepared for tomorrow...
Damn lah. Why is this semester i've no time to do anything? Why man why? I'm having a no-life life right now. It's always lie down = sleep But that's okay, except the problem with getting home late everytime and having the stupid lessons end at late timings. What's worse is the fact that the timings are always @$#%^$%@# wrong, totally wrong....
Rahhhh!!! I'm against the world! Everyone's against me! Go and die!
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Well skipping that aside, someone's pestering me to post something about her, so yea...
The original....
Edited.... by me!
These two pictures do not need further explanations! XD
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Yea, these few days of pure boredom during class at least i have friends who crap with me on msn, handphone, personally(silly classmates), email buddies, movie buddies(oh i've watched Advent Children again, tmr mayb watching Mirrors XD), band buddies, bitching gang, kee siao gang etc. etc.
A BIG THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE HAPPENING..... so far... lol
And to those who screwed up my life, make me grow angry, give sarcastic remarks, toyed with my feelings, pangseh me, trying to be bias/racist with me, are a burden to me, who gave a bad start of my daily life, just ignore me bcoz i'm a malay/fag/bastard/sicko/complete turn-off/act cute/for nothing, getting into my nerves, make me impatient, mock at me in front of people, lastly to people who bores me to death.
If Singapore has got no rules, you wun live to see another tomorrow...
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Happy now? Ok i'm going to sleep. Gosh, i'm totally a night person. lol Totally not looking forward to friday shit. =/
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Yvonne! (lol forgot to sms her, nvm. tmr den sms)
Well these few weeks had been really hell for me. I don't know why. It's just like, this thing cannot that thing cannot, den i'll be like, start to grow white hair? And what's with the busy schedule and the late lesson endings? And what's with everyone around?
Ahh!
It's either i hate myself, or the whole world's against me, or i'm just a nuisance to everyone's eyes. =(((((
Well basically this post is really not for the faint-hearted. Please refrain from watching most of the videos if you're really the type of person who hates to get freaked out or see such undesirable things that you're not supposed to see. YOU'VE BEEN WARNED. lol
This one's scared the shit out of me. Really.
Lol. And this one's funny instead. Haha!
LOL! And this one! Is censored!!! Not meant for the innocents lol.
Yea, good thing there's no such pranks like this in singapore. lol
And yea, try doing this to your boss. XD
These few days, sleeping has been ten times better than to see girls around you, and it's 100 times better than watching p/h. lol I had many nightmares, well i asked for it. So i got it.
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I might wanna try doing good things, trying to see if my luck changes. lol
It was of pure full of training and perseverance during band since the past three days this week. Not only that, i'm alr pumped up till i can't even concentrate on anything that i did during tutorials, labs and lectures.
First of all, Paramore rocks my funky brains till i can't focus in class at all! XDD
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As far as i'm concerned, i'm fucking superbly ultra-mega tired like hell. But it's just as what i wanted. I'm kinda accustomed to it so far. Just now school from 9am till 5pm, and my brain was like never meant to understand what i was doing then. Do work, 5min later = memory loss. Good job shamin, keep it up!!!............. NOT!!!
And Blk S is fucking cold can? Freezing like hell, i wonder how did those year 3 students that i see there, managed to survive such 'winter-like' climate, wearing typical, less-covered clothings of singapore so-called fashion? lol!
Den after sch got band. WAH I TELL YOU AH. DURING THAT TIME I WAS SO TIRED, MY EYES WERE TEARY FROM SLEEPINESS, but i'm like, I WANT TO PRACTISE YOU NOE!!! LOL
My eyes really cmi during that time. I played crap and sounded crap today. I was only doing stupid stuffs.
And now what? I'm so carefreely blogging here like nobody's business. Oh dammit, tomorrow's school. Get to sleep already!
PS; Joey you RAWRks lah! You were there on msn when i'm bored hell. lol. Now i kana your virus alr. Kee siao some more! lol!
Hey guys, wanna noe sth? I'm typing all haywire right now i'm trying my best to type properly.
And guess wat? First day of school, is not bad after all! lol!
It's a little shy to talk about, so i'll just skip to the after school parts.
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Lessons were boring lah. First was the computer security thingy i forgot wat's it called. ZoneSafety? dno lah. Den got lecture, Visual C++ Gosh, it's like a different version of Java lah. But nvm, it's programming. Once i buy the lecture notes, i wun lose in programming! Forward to nerdism! *Hitler salutes*
And oh have i told you b4? I'm currently having Joey as my professional entertainer on msn nowadays. It's unofficial, but yet happening. Don't believe? Go check her blog here.
RAWRS That's what she'll say. lol
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After school slacked at north canteen. With Luntat. He's still waiting to collect my 'stuffs' from the thumbdrive. Den played CS, Dota etc. nice nice!
Den met Yvonne, so alone there so acc her awhile. Den go band rm, i'm the only trombonist there for the warm-up. It's like super damn weird can? lol
Band made my day complete. I thought i'll be super tired but somehow i'm still happy till right now.
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I don't know why but right now i've so many feelings inside me. For now it's a happy feeling for sure. I don't care about whatever is happening to me or around me right now, but i just can't stop feeling happy. lol
Pardon my rudeness. lol But Hard Gay is loved. And everyone else who knows me and loves me are loved too. lol
I don't wish to say your name here, but you are loved too. :)
As this week marks the ending of the holidays, felt so fucked up. Yea you noe wat. Almost everyone feels like it too. But there are also some who wanted school to start dearly, which is so opposite from mine.
But whatever it is, i'm just bored and want to do something last-min right before school starts. I want to turn things back to wherever it was from the beginning. I want to finish up most of my games. I want to finish up my animes. I want to get all worked out and tired. I want to restore the time i sleep and wake up back to how a normal student does. I want to pick up the interest on studying. I want to be hyper back again. I want to be realistic again. I want to experience many good happenings this time round. I want miracles to happen. Let me be evil. Let me be the anime freak once again. Let me be the emo guy. Let me be the guy a tough nut to crack. Let me be the slackiest person you've ever seen. Let me stay pervertic, always the hentai-rumoured guy. Let me chase after my dreams a little longer.
sometimes, things just don't work the way you want them to. and there are dreams that can't come true.
i can't believe such simple thought like that actually worked out, just as i thought so.
Oh well, i shldn't mess with fate. i should concentrate on my own stuffs like usual.
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I've been itching to go to the movies one day. Saw this anime released today. Wanting to watch it. But horror shows are also quite the fun. haha!
it looks 'animatively' delicious!
Ok, gotta sleep. Listen to Gackt songs till i drop dead for tonight.
Hari Raya Collection, Hoooooo~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol that was random.
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These few days are getting more and more boring, i could almost die instantly. I dunno what else to do than to do my own stuffs at night, that's been my daily habit to sleep late at night, finding things to do and waste time.
Nothing to do is sian. Many things to do oso sian.(applies to schoolwork only. lol)
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Sometimes feels like going out doing nothing outside, waste time outside. But of course, with the appropriate people only lah. Rite? But usually when it comes to zero cash, i don't have the vibes to go out lol. =S haha!
lol damn lame
I've been getting this itchy butt these few days to go OCH. Dno why but i'm damn freaking curious about it there. lol I'm the stubborn type, digging my own grave just to have fun, until i regret doing it one day. haha! And also wanting to watch ghost story or horror shows but no luck these few days. Haiz...
I don't like the way it is right now... I'll try my best to change...
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ipod/itouch/PSP blue
a pair of good drumsticks
a good Trombone + soft case (seriously)
headphones! the bigger the better lol
personal piano keyboard? lol
