You noe, i spent this night, doing nothing but chatting and thinking. I realised something that i thought i've forgotten for quite some time ago.

There's such a thing as "You can't run away from your fate."
Just that sometimes you just duno your fate. But now i sorta feeling it abit, and it's like kinda scary when i assume it shld be the way i solve things in the end?
I just hate suspenses, it's even scarier than horror movies lol.

I was really somewhat half-way chatting and half-way in deep thought. I duno if it should really be done that way. And i also duno if i could really make it all the way "there" anot. I know i've failed for like, duno how many times like, so damn loser can? LOL!

But i shall let the nature takes its flow. I shldn't be thinking too much about it. I'm sure the flow will take its place so naturally that i don't even know what i'm talking and somehow it shld just flow and let go. But of course, i would want it to be very HAPPENING!!! If not happening not fun one, must have drama for entertainment-purposes lol.

Actually i shld have alot more to say but, i think my words are so goddam boring it's worse than the lecture notes that everyone had just bought. LOL

But nvm! i show you my new idol! XD
Im Yoona from Girls' Generation!



ok nites.

As what my nick says, it's not about how 'cold' today is, or how boring/irritating the lecturer(s) are. The fact that i can't take it anymore of the lecture is mainly none other thing than to look at girls, and then i tio one who caught my eyes. And after that i consequently make many many many many many many glances across the lecture hall. Dammit lah.

I think i shld go look at more Hyun Joong pics, make me gay back again. Male hormones, disappear! School is not for looking at girls, but to study!!!! >.<

And something funny happened this morning. I come late for class is bcoz i'm like, waiting for my mum to give me pocket money. It's like, my wayang skills duno why so good, mayb it's too good it looked too natural lol. I just do the 'heck care' thingy, just keep quiet. My mum alr asked whether i stll got money anot, den i just dun care nvr answer. Den i asked whether she got eye mo anot, den you noe wat she say? Nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag..... =.=

I only ask for eye mo den she still say i not enough sleep lah, always on the com lah blah blah blah. Den i just keep quiet. Den in the end she say dun have. It's like, hide all the way around the bush and then she answer the question one. Wth. =.=
Den as the money wise, she suddenly pass me $10. Den i just take and den go off wait for bus. Lol

I feel like ranting something, before shit happens.

Something that i can't tolerate.

I can't tolerate it when i gained nothing beneficial in exchange from something that i'm doing or have done, especially when it's NON-PAID LABOUR/VOLUNTARY WORK or something that i totally hate to do but because i got other goals/plans and i still insists on doing it.

I think that it'll be a freaking waste of time. And i totally hate it. It's like, effort wasted for nothing. For shit.

And i'd rather be doing something else greater than such stupid things. It feels more sucky to realise that it's totally not worth in doing whatever i had done especially when it's already done. But what to do? Lifetime wasted. Move on.

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But if i'm really to think of doing things that will benefit me in every way, i'd be sitting at home idling and waiting for the right time to come only. lol
And that's totally impossible coz i'm impatient and especially with the school term started, it's 100% impossible to just wait and do nothing. Can say itchy hands and legs uh? LOL

And oh! I just got the solution to all these problems! I just have to be more firm and natural! And still, i have to bear with waiting, and get other things done. Doing schoolwork is shitty but i have to do it man! I need to create my ultimate solution towards my daily lives right now! Yeah!

First day of year 3 was..... Shockingly full of fun stuffs! LOL

First of all, with the mixed up classes, i still get stucked with my other two which makes us three musketeers, or also known as BFF (omg sound so gay lol).

Den saw many familiar faces, faces of beauty and grotesque. HAHA.

And i wore my beanie coz i still can't get used to my new hair :(

And many things happened, blah blah blah bitching here and there with Eunice lol.




Den came last lesson of the day.
Wah! I saw my whole former class sitting there, just like playing some game where you get to see your party full strength lol.

And then classmates started to bitch together (and Atiqah was sitting next to me, just like the old days!) den sian here and there den play some Mafia Wars and some quizzes lol.
It's like, CLASS REUNION. BANZAI! LOL

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Den after school went for band. Kinda reluctant but the passion never fails me to attend band every practice. =D
Was like kinda switched ON for band stuff, chionging everyday and getting pumped up with everything like adrenaline.

Ok den blah blah blah blah skip this whole part.

Look, all that i'm trying to say is that, i've finally realised that how really happening this semester is gonna become of to me, and i really gotta do some rules for myself so as to keep track of my whole performance. lol

I'll probably have to abandon some of my "favourite" stuffs.

Den mayb i'll have to do revision every night or so.

As for band, i will have to come out a few sports activities so as to increase my stamina and performance. As well as to train for NAPFA and build some "matching pipes" lol.

Gotta "actively" do my stuffs and think in class.

And probably, abandon all love and crushes that's not necessary, unless extremely provoked =O lol





Anything else to add? yes? no? Pls share if you must. :D


Alright time to sleep! nites!

I just wanted a good decent 3rd year life! Seriously no shits on me for this year!

End!

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Introducing, my new idols!




Gu Hye Seon and Kim So Eun from Boys Over Flowers! XD

Now let me tell you of something that's been keeping me so uncomfortable ever since the start of April.


SCHOOL -.-

Well for those who don't agree on any of my points, please do debate back and scold whatever you want, i'm just eternally hate school so much!

Well, first of all there's this gamble of whether you'll be getting an A or B or a C+, D+ or even an F! (well for most cases for stupid people and those who LOOK STUPID, they'll be getting the borderline grades!) And yea, if you think i'm the straight A type, well think again. Even if i would get straight As why should i even complain? lol

Secondly, it'll be my freaking 3rd year(like, finally. The shits have arrived! -_-")

Thirdly, i don't know if i could even bear all the busyness and oh-so-monotonous life of my new 3rd year shit. I don't even know whether i'll be able to stand properly on my backbone and to even walk properly. And i still can remember all the shits that i've been through, FOR NOTHING. All the shit feelings and memories start to run back into my blood and veins it's so irritating just to sense it's presence back in me.

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But, on the brighter side, let's just pump in and squeeze all activities within these 3 days. =D

I've put my FIRST ever favourite Korean song(I'm Stupid - SS501).
It's one of the theme songs for Boys Over Flowers. =D
I watched it with mum ever since during my no-laptop era times. Hehe.

Like seriously, life's been hell of a busy lifetime for me for this 1 week!
Especially there's this Facebook, Mafia Wars(i wonder why people ALWAYS rob my buildings), many shitty and fun quizzes to do, and chionging this game, chionging that game, keeping updated with loads of stuffs that keeps coming my way and i have to like, keep on completing every each thingy. Like, phew!

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Sumore school is starting in 1 weeks' time! OMGOMGOMG
Sian lah! One week is not enough for me, not to say, re-adjusting my own sleeping-waking times. It's gotten even worse these few weeks!
Can you imagine, it's like sometimes i will sleep during sunrise, usually sleep till 12 - 1pm. Or even worse - 5pm! That's the freaking reason why i didn't attend NYPAW on saturday! And i really wanna see Chronowerkz DVD for myself! LOL

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Now i'm stucked with 3 series:
Avatar The Last Airbender: Book 3
Bleach (which is never-ending)
BoF

And i'm gonna start with a new anime called Saikano.
I heard it's some love story thingy, so i'm in for that series! =D

And I wanted to at least see the whole 21 episodes of Avatar book 3, and that should end my curiosity over their final battle. Lol





Found this pic on the net. Lmao


Nites!

Alright! Back from my oh-so-isolated life, and now i'm back to online mode!

Shamin has been rescued!


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And oh my, my mouse skills have gotten so bad i don't think i'm able to play games properly sia. -_-

So damn rusty, but nvm. I shall resume whatever i've left out since the last TWO FREAKING MONTHS -_-

Still remembered the times when everything in my life got freaking screwed up-side down like hell. But many thanks to my many friends who've been there for me.



Restart, restore, and recover! Yoshi!
It's so good to be back alive! =D


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Nothing else to say, too busy.
Arios~!